i don't think it can hold one more ounce of information....life detail...job opportunity....design instruction...event plan....emotional whatever.
i just called the after school program i am checking out this afternoon to verify the time i'm supposed to arrive. why? because i thought she said 3.45 pm but my brain started doing weird things on me. oofta.
too much people, just too much. but i am glad it is being used. far better that it be used to its fullest extent than lay wasted in idleness. this is, after all, rather familiar territory for me--one i am far more comfortable in than rested idleness. it would be about this time in the semester that i would feel about the same--like i just couldn't take anymore but no end in sight. it's at this point that my walls break down and cracks in the facade appear.
carefully constructed appearances go to the wayside.
tears burst forth at inappropriate times.
frustration actually shows.
bewilderedness leaks out in forgetfulness and sarcasm.
laughter bubbles when it shouldn't.
and people actually discover who I really am.
otherwise i'd say it is bad to reach this point--unhealthy, stressful, exhausted, blah blah. but if i never reached this point, no one would ever really know me. and i would think i was really in control of me..and my life. which is a lie. i'd rather be humbled. and reminded of His Truth.
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