i'm feeling poisoned by facebook.

and tv/netflix.

and my cell phone.

and email.

yesterday i forgot my cell at home.

and i felt naked-

for awhile.

then i got over it.

it disgusts me.

i desire what is real-

even in the small things.

paper and pen.

face to face.

active engagement instead of passive consumption.

out in the middle of nowhere with no television, hardly any cell phone reception, and poor wifi, i was free.

and now i'm enslaved.

more so than i've ever been before.

i balk at my ability to assimilate.

my desire to be connected resulting in hours on facebook.

what a waste.

as i type this-

on my blog.

need to break free.

to be real again.

to taste life without this ever increasing addiction to know others through false means.

why in the world do i ever need to know what an acquaintance did today?

what a waste of my brain.

to mindlessly entertain myself.

why in the world can't i sit down and read? or paint? or anything besides electronic media!?

what a waste of my time.

i'm filled with information i don't need. entertainment i did nothing to gain.

a life that frustrates instead of fulfills.

Jesus, set me free.