decisions must be made
a line drawn in the sand
because of a simple insurance card
funny how little things like that force you to nail things down

....at least for now.

i continue to wade through my life: my desires, my needs, my pasts, my futures, my hurts, my joys. trying to find the pattern, the string that holds them all together. correction: i know the string--that's God. i guess it's more trying to find what i should keep adding to the string. its like different interests, places, and people are different colors and types of beads. as i've gone through life, different colors were more prominent, repeated from daily use more than significance or outstanding capability. and then there are those types of beads that have changed colors but remained constant.
the colors would be: school (x12), music, theater, art(x3), theater, school (x4) , art (x4), camp, praise/ministry teams, youth service, camp, travels, student government, graphic design, camp, travels, graphic design, camp, youth service, customer service, graphic design, youth service
the most prominent shapes in order from most frequent to least would be: learning, creativity, service, leadership, adventure
so what bead do i add next? what color?