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Laura the title's for you :)

I could be profound but I don't have much.
have been pestered by numerous people to start this thing and being stranded in a snow globe will just about do it to anybody. isolation is a killer.
o dear old chicago.
flying out this weekend to see my parents in maryland..where they haven't seen a single inch of snow yet...and i've seen probably a good couple of feet over the last month.
snow globe..i'm telling ya.

i'm noticing that i don't write in complete thoughts.
hm this could be confusing.
feel free to misconstrue however you'd like :)

sitting here wondering how does one write one of these things...i mean tis meant to be read..but really....
who's honestly going to read this?
(besides you laura :)
must develop some sort of tone or theme or SOMETHING

i'm sitting in a conference room strewn with books and games and paper and candy and coffee and apples and clothes and cabinets listening to classical christmas music. did i mention that pandora is A-mazing?
the chaos of no work space.
but that's something i've been complaining about for awhile now.
kinda sick of complaining about it. think i'm going to stop.
i'm SUPPOSED to be PROACTIVE about this kinda crap. define crap--the things i complain about (seven habits of highly effective people)
what does PROACTIVE mean anyways? can i really dig myself out of sin?
Can i be PROACTIVE enough to really make my life better on my own?
it's a nice concept but isn't that all that is wrong with our world?
isn't that everything that's been wrong with our world since the beginning of time?
that we should know the truth of good and evil and thus in possessing it, we think we can save ourselves.
AFTER ALL IF WE CAN KNOW IT, THEN SURELY WE CAN ATTAIN IT.
He should become greater i should become less (something like that)
NOT "after i'm saved" i should become more proactive and more knowledgeable of good and try even harder to attain it so that he doesn't need to become greater.
b.c after all i can't really save myself can i?
even after i'm "saved"
what happened to resting/residing/taking refuge in HIM?
i'm in more need of His grace now than ever before.

and i'm done ranting. not that this made any sense.
and where does discipline/self control fit into all of this? b.c isn't discipline/self control good?
i still haven't figured that out.
i'll let you know when i do.
b.c let me tell you discipline is NOT one of my strong points.
*being an artist and all*
free spirit
you get the point
maybe its just the idea that we should do it based upon principles/virtue instead of a relationship with the Almighty that makes me wary of being PROACTIVE.
there's always an exception to a principle/virtue.
there's give and take in a relationship..no one is ever an exception with God.
conclusion somewhat reached.