like something should've been said or done and it wasn't, but you can't quite put your finger on what it is. and it doesn't really feel like you could've done anything about it. or maybe i'm just being stubborn.
i'm feeling very stubborn right now.
very stubborn.
my eyebrows are furrowed as i think about what i should type.
i don't even question in my mind if i should've said something. because i'm feeling too stubborn to even entertain that possibility. so that probably means i should have. but instead i sit here with furrowed brow. i think i'm frustrated, but i'm not even sure about that. all i know is i'd rather stew than feel what i actually need to feel.
i think it is that i am done trying--not in a bah i give up throw my hands up way. but in a withdraw sort of way. in a i'm just going to be me and forget about you and your silliness, relegating any emotion to the back of my mind. b.c i'm not going to be controlled by it. so there.
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